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Thursday, October 25, 2007
9:34PM
You all point the finger
Because you think you heard
Or might have heard,
What did you really hear?
When making enemies
There is no faster way.
So take care next time
If you point the finger
It may be your last time.
Thursday, October 4, 2007
12:00AM
Dance with me.
You move so fluidly
Around every question.
Polygraphs would fail
And I am sure so will I
Friday, June 15, 2007
Love that death
For all the life it brings
Hate that life
For all the death it brings
Sounds so similar
For all the familiarity
That on one particular day
He might be her
She might be him
But they,
Well they could never be.
Feeling this dance that’s never been
Moving with nothing but thoughts
Time to take the breath away
Can you still breathe?
Forgotten functions
Do they still matter
When you know you cant feel?
Hating being loved is blue
Yet such a favorite color
So simply, I must be dead
Shame no one mentioned it to me
I still hope I was worth it
If only for one brief existence
As you’ve guessed,
You probably won’t.
Pretend that you know
You definitely don’t.
You’ve cheated yourself,
In hopes that he won’t.
He believes what you say
But sadly you don’t.
He’d love if he could,
And honestly he won’t.
Mean what he thinks
And say what he don’t.
Friday, November 3, 2006
Make me a bet for my soul
Let it be something simple.
There have to be rules
Or will it never happen.
I'll promise if you do too.
Try to invent a new reality
Somewhere I am perfect.
There is no place for you.
Still, I'd rather find you
Only in my memories of life,
Having lost the only bet
Worth gambling on,
Than never having tried.
Thursday, August 31, 2006
In this perfect silence
Do thoughts strive to exist
As the bell begins tolling
They tumble forth freed at last.
So sad are those uncourted.
Believing their rejecter the poorer
But who can say which deserve expression?
Only the wisest of us might know
Fortunate for me that I am not him.
Thursday, May 25, 2006
If only i'd known you knew
I'd never have said those things to you
I thought you brought me life
Well it was all just veiled slavery
I thought you brought me love
Well it was all just unspeakable torture
If you had passed me by
I was sure I could only die
Yet you make me feel as if
I am tumbling through the nine levels
If only i'd known you knew
I'd never have said those things to you
Hate me for all its worth
Just know I'll love hating you more.
Abandon me for all its worth
Just know I'll love your abesence more.
Built like clay putty
I was wrapped around your world
But all you let me live
Would make Purgatory feel like Heaven
If only i'd known you knew
I'd never have said those things to you.
Tuesday, May 2, 2006
Can't Yet it is I've Given All of my world for just you.
Feel, my life my death Hell, Gods Any of my beliefs for you.
Taste, my best my worst Hate, Gifts My loss
Smell, everything nothing Health, Gain The intoxicating fragrance of you.
See, priceless worthless Help, Gold How little it is worth without you.
Hear, pleasure pain Hurt,Greatness My confession
Understand it. incomprehensible. Happiness The most beautiful feeling, is you.
Tuesday, April 4, 2006
In the perfection of this void
I found a beauty so clean and pure.
It burned away my sloth with pain.
It laced me in a burning acid.
Melting the skin for new to form.
Tearing at the fibers of my being.
Leaving me in quiet soreness.
For every strained repetition,
The fog cleared exponentially.
You are not free of anything,
Until you are willing to give up everything.
Friday, March 3, 2006
save me from these depths
where i drown in my tears
these nights are so long
torn between dreams and reality
but i cant seem to hold onto either
stuck in this beautiful nightmare
where night and day are endlessly confused
nothing can save me from myself
im trapped behind a mirror
i cannot see myself and
you cannot know me
~ P. M.
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Of all the locks I have found
Never hoping the key would fit sound.
Suddenly, I knew from the first pass
I would change as easily as heated glass.
With courage burning stronger than a fire
I was ready to make known my desire.
Yet the mere glimpse of your face
Causes me to lose all my grace.
Your word in kindness spoken
Has made all my wits broken.
Sadly, upon a second glance,
I knew I never stood a chance.
In our private game of hearts,
You’ve won before it starts.
One smile will brighten the day
Yet one frown will take it all away.
If only you were able to realize
You’ve stolen more than my eyes.
Monday, February 13, 2006
Recall eternity,
Do you? What,
Out of nothing
Eons past,
And no memory
Do you recall
But the afterlife
Bothers you?
You really doubt?
There is nothing
We are not that
The stars are not.
We think ourselves
So different. Have
You ever heard
A star? They burn
So fiercely, it makes
Me tremble. Yet
We are Stardust.
We to burn. Space
Expands into itself
What could possibly
Be beyond space,
Eternity is far greater
Than we conceive or
See. It’s in our cores
Picture it, feel the
Flood that makes
Your ribcage quake
~ J. C.
Thursday, February 9, 2006
In the street of attention the houses riddle,
Sweet illusions knitted at windowsills.
In the nightmare of silence the rains ache,
Pressed by the hollow peals of thunder.
In the brothel of providence the tombs wait,
Glad to be eternally wed to those sinners.
In the caverns of piety the statues groan,
Ashamed of their own rebellion against God.
In the blanket of discordance the beggars plead,
While the lips of the rich glisten red and wetly.
In the landscape of reckoning the thoughts swam,
Offering unachievable possibilities of condolences.
In the titanic vessel of refusal the black veins grin,
Swelling with their eagerness to explode feeling.
In the depthless recesses of mischief the soldiers rule,
Planning and shaping the scrolls of history with blades.
In the era of believable memory only the needles work,
Honing their sharpness dancing upon the whetstone.
In the province of apathy the green leaves all weep,
Their cries met with a hostile and infinite deafness.
In the pantheon of the void all the world laughs,
Maniacally suicidal and so pleased with itself.
Saturday, January 28, 2006
Gorge upon the tasteless
Longing to have tasted truth.
These pools of imagination
Deep enough to drown all.
Prophets speak only in lies
While dreams speak chance.
The future and the subconscious,
Are but a duality of illusion.
Never immersed in existence
Only fleeting about the fringes.
Too fearful to glance inward
For knowing why to hate others.
Millions of windows a façade
The greatest actors being mirrors.
Yet blind it is impossible to see
All reality beyond the thin pane.
Laugh at the preposterousness,
And claim to know the taste.
“True” prophets amongst?
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Never quite understood
To hate the caterpillar
Yet love the butterfly.
Regular chimes of irony
Sounded by humanity.
They speak in hurricanes
Of maddened celerity
In terrible opposition
To the virtue most lost.
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
12:18AM
there are nights when i think
there are nights when i dont
but of the choices presented
i've squandered them all.
I'd like to blame others
but knowing you know me.
If i were to have thought
I'd doubtfuilly confuse.
Be that as it it may
I've hoped that i might
I'll never find that courage
which held one "vrai" thought.
I'd like to have told you
And know that i did.
But obvisouly my best
Was not quite the same
As it were i'd sleep hoping
And with it die knowing
If sense is found here
then i have much to fear
Friday, January 13, 2006
It’s impolite to leave in haste
Your recent pleasure scattered in waste.
Make sure you throw me out.
Thank you, for your obvious disregard,
I’ve tired not caring but found it too hard.
Make sure you throw me out.
I’d hope you met your fill tonight.
The sight makes my throat so tight.
Make sure you throw me out.
You look farther away as I stand so near.
I never make a sound simply from fear.
Make sure you throw me out.
Everyday becomes exactly the same
You know right where to lay the blame.
Make sure you throw me out.
I’ve now forgotten how it started.
But I wish now it could have ended.
Make sure you throw me out.
I know you are done with me,
Do you at least have the decency?
Please make sure you throw me out.
Tuesday, January 3, 2006
4:12AM
Know power of hatred,
Delving deeper deception.
Painted in red of blood.
Thoughts move as an essence.
Filled in fire pure,
Filling my twisted perception
I'll scourge your existence,
And end what you've hated.
Stand quiet below,
From heated love.
Thou I've made,
Thee I'll keep safe.
In the mouth of greatness
Know the gentlest touch,
Blessed in radiant beauty,
Live forever in my love.
Summon forth the eternity,
Perhaps I will bestow,
The life beyond comprehension,
And enjoy the unending bliss.
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
5:27AM
As the world spins and turns wrong now
Who is it that I will find at my door,
When I fall down and break my brow?
Is it me or rather you who are the poor?
Hold on till tomorrow I beg you please,
And love not what it is I always become.
Hating myself I change with the greatest ease.
Instead ignore this pathetic tune that I hum,
Pass through into a deeper me, the true side
Please don’t be afraid of what I might hide.
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